When my hair started to fall out again on Saturday it hurt emotionally. Since my hair had started to regrow this winter, I was close to going wigless. Saturday's discovery meant that one piece of normalcy in my life had been snatched from my grasp.
By Sunday, I experienced a new pain, on my scalp. Various parts of my scalp were sore when hair moved or touched a pillow. Today, before showering (and plugging the drain), I pulled off as much of my hair as I could. It took a long time, about my limit for standing. And it hurt, particularly on the top of my head. Washing my hair was awful. I stood under the shower wincing, nearly whimpering, as the water hit my tender scalp. And even more hair fell out, short little bits that I could tell were from the new growth -- little guys that were just getting their start in life.
Maybe by the fall, I'll be off chemo and my hair will grow back for good. Until the next round of Taxol.
P.S. We saw my oncologist today and in response to the hair loss and aches and pains (which I hadn't realized were Taxol related), he is going to reduce my dose for Friday's chemo. He's always trying to balance my quality of life against getting the cancer under control.